Bye Bye Betty

And everything is now officially happening.

 I leave for the Blue Mountains this Thursday coming. Dad is driving down with me which will be nice, I didn’t particularly want to have to drive down there alone. AND we’re stopping over at Coffs Harbour and doing the toboggans at the Big Banana. Memories!!!

Also, I have a new car!!! Yes, that’s right. Betty was dying a slow and painful death. It was going to cost about $2500 to fix her, and that’s all she is worth when fixed anyhow. I figured it was time to cut my losses and move on to a new stage in my life. I am now the proud owner of a ‘94 Honda Prelude! It’s all leather-y and electric-y and sunroof-y and pretty!!! It somewhat lacks personality, but it’s sooooo much nicer to drive. Now I just have to take Betty round to a few wreckers and see how much I can get for her as is. Maybe if I vaccuumed her out and gave her a rinse I might get a little extra???

I go to a staff training night at my new work on Monday 25th, and I guess the boss will let me know when I actually start working in-store after that.

I don’t think I have a lot of other news other than that. My schedule for the next week is HECTIC. Check it out.

Thurs (today): Work 9am-9pm. Go home. Finish surprise for Riss? BED!!!

Fri: Work 9am-5.30pm. Hoping that Kristal, Amber & Superman can come down from Sunny Coast to visit. If not, I’m actually free then!!!!

Sat: Work 9am-5.30pm. Last day of work! Head straight to Brisvegas after work for Chrissie’s 21st, big night on the town.

Sun: Drive back to the Goldie and get ready in time to be at Marty & Kat’s 3pm wedding. I’m mc’ing the reception. It’s going to go til late for sure.

Mon: Hanging out with MAGGIIEEEE!!!!!!!!!! Tattoos baby!!! At 6.30-7ish having my going away barbecue @ the park near the Grand Hotel. BYO drinks and food if you want to come.

Tues: Driving round to wreckers to get as much money as possible for Betty. Start packing the Honda for the trip. Optus Roadshow that night, then to Tink’s afterwards for the promised game of Monopoly.

Wed: Hopefully SLEEP a bit during the day, finish packing the car, then out to see the Australian Outback Spectacular with my family and grandparents for my last night in Queensland.

Thurs: Drive to Sydney with Dad!

So if anybody wants to catch up then you need to make it Tuesday or Wednesday day, or possibly Friday night, okay?

Listening to: Radio Metro & shopping centre babble
Eating/Drinking: Water
Wearing: Work uniform
Mood: Slightly tired, but happy!
Thinking: Of all the things I have to do before I leave
Wishing: I had an extra week to catch up with a few more people
Question of the Day: Why does icecream have to be bad for you?

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Does anybody else ever feel like their sibling really doesn’t like them? Does anybody else get bothered by this?

I’m up in Noosa at the moment. I came up with Mum after a family barbecue at my grandparent’s place this afternoon. We were talking on the way up, and the topic of my sister Sarah came up. Sarah can be absolutely lovely, when she chooses to be. I’m not going to list why she annoys/hurts me because that’s mean and it would take way too long. But mainly, I feel like Sarah just doesn’t like me. For me, that’s really hard to deal with. I’m a bit of a family girl (though I must admit that there were a few years there that I completely wasn’t). But Sarah and I have never really fought. I mean, I used to get annoyed with her when she nicked my stuff without asking, but fair enough. I used to take her out once every couple of months for dinner, or coffee, or shopping, or the movies. And then all of a sudden she just doesn’t talk to me. The other day I replied to one of her bulletin posts on myspace, and she was like ‘FAR OUT! do you like read every bulletin i post or something’. I replied yes, I do that with people that I like and am interested in. Would you rather me not like you?’

Seriously. I just don’t know what to do anymore. She thinks that she is more mature than I am. She seems to find me embarrassing. She only replies to my ‘I love you’ when she’s half-asleep and probably doesn’t know any better. She is only nice to me when she wants something. She’s mean to me. I know that sounds kind of lame, but she is. And when I tell her off for being nasty to other people, she rails on me and then refuses to talk to me for ages. Yet, I really want her to like me. What do I do?

Aside from this, I currently have an issue with….(please note that this is really embarrassing for me to talk about. I don’t know if it should be or not, but I hate talking about it)…. snoring.

Yes, that’s right. Ask my family or Cam. Or probably a few of my friends who are too polite to say anything. I am a really loud snorer. For me, I find this humiliating. And the worst thing is, it’s not like a bad habit I can just stop or anything. I don’t know what to do about it!!! I’ve tried no pillows, three pillows and everything in between. I’ve attempted sleeping on my stomach and on my side (I don’t usually change position much once I’m asleep) but the reports still keep coming in. Obviously I can’t monitor myself while I’m asleep either. I guess I’ll go to the doctor and talk to them about it, but I’ve done a little research on the net, and it pretty much all comes back to surgery which I really don’t have the money for. Lately I’ve been really conscious of it. I don’t even like the idea of staying at friend’s places much now, cos I’m afraid of what they’ll think of me.

I hate this. Truly.

Listening to: Eva Cassidy
Eating/Drinking: Nothing
Wearing: Green hippie skirt, white top, black cardie/hoodie thing
Mood: Tired and hurt
Thinking: Trying not to
Wishing: A million things
Question of the Day: How do you stop snoring?

Isn’t it funny….

How one song comes on the radio and it entirely changes your mood. Happy to melancholy. Sad to joyful. In my case, this time, it was the first one.

‘Hey there Delilah’ by the Plain White T’s was playing on NovaFM. I really like that song. I heard it first last year I think, a friend showed it to me, and at the time for some reason I couldn’t download it. Then I was talking to Cam the other day and he’s like ‘you should listen to this song, you’d like it’. So of course, when it comes on, I remember that, and it’s the bittersweet feeling that kills me. The smile because you’ve thought of someone you miss, but the stab in the heart because you realise they aren’t going to be around at home when you need to vent after work or tell them how funny it was when you woke up that morning and stubbed your toe and then fell in the bathtub.

*sigh*

Getting off that topic, I was thinking that I might start up a ‘literature’ page on this blog (if I can figure out how to do it), much like Rhys has done on his webpage. I’ll put some bits of writing on there, because I know most people don’t check my deviantArt account.

Anyway, I only updated because Rhys was complaining that I don’t update often enough. I’m at work, so I’m going to go and get lunch now.

Ciao!

Today is a day for writing

It really is. For the first time in months, probably about four, I wrote. Poetry (or something similar to it). You can see it on my deviantArt.
I’ve been wanting to update for ages now, I just haven’t had internet access. Well, sporadically I have. But it’s hard to think at work. And I’ve been so busy every time I’ve come to Noosa. But now I’m waiting for a load of washing to finish, so here it is.

For those who haven’t heard (and probably all those that read this blog actually have), I now have a job in the Blue Mountains (at another phone store in Penrith) and accommodation (in a place called Bullaburra). This is good, I guess. People keep going, ‘wow, you must be excited!’ And I’m like ‘yeah, kind of I suppose’. But not really.

I am content with the decision I’ve made, and I’m definitely following it through, but excited is not a word I would use to describe how I feel. Unsure probably. Maybe a little sad. Even a little bit lonely. It will all be okay though, it really will. I am very much not liking my place of work at the moment, so it will be nice to get out of there.

It’s been very hard with Cam moving, as most people probably know. The first couple of days I was a bit of a mess, but lately it has been easier. It’s hard though, cos little things that are said or things that I spot around the place all trigger off memories that are bittersweet. I miss having him around all the time, and I’m a little scared that things will never be the same again. I don’t want to let go of that.

I probably don’t have too much else to say right now. I’m going to be very run-down by the time I get to the Blue Mountains as I am trying my hardest to fit as many fun things and as much time as I can with people in before I leave. 23 days and counting.

Listening to: Sigur Ros
Eating/Drinking: Nothing
Wearing: Satin nightie
Mood: Just a bit tired I guess
Thinking: I should go to sleep now
Wishing: That I didn’t have to get up at 5.30 tomorrow to travel down to work
Question of the Day: When it says ‘lamb’ on the dog food can, do they mean lamb-flavoured horse?